so one year has almost passed by and still i am right where i use to be , nothing is still changed , every thing is still the same , no love , no money , no nothing , what does life have planned for me , i really need to find out , its not that i haven't been trying , but it all goes in waist . i come so close to what i want and then poof its taken away from me , what i have realised is that no matter how good things get , if i talk about it a lot , they get taken away form me , but if thats the way it works why don't i get my sorry sadness ,loneliness also been taken away , why does it have only to be the good stuff in life , what can i say , life moves on , solider up , put your poker face on and get on with it .


sometimes it last in love sometimes it hurts instead
some choices are made for us in life , some we make for other people , not because we don't love them , but because we do , the only way we know its right is if it lets us stay true to ourselves  ,  we can't regret our choices , the past is behind us and all we have with us is the present and the future , whatever it may lead us to

Mr Lonely

Things are just not going as per plan ... well not all .. some things are going as i want ... but not in the love area .... i am not getting the one ... its tough .. plus i am also not that artactive any more ... i really have to put on a show .. and many times its not even me .... i still have to meet up with a girl whom i can be completlly honest with ... but tough luck on that ... i have to lie ... i have been lieing from such a young age .. thats its now in my blood .. i dont think i can live with out lieing ... ankur you better watch out ... i guess its because of all my lies i have come up to this place .. i am not broke .. but i owe a lot of money to people . i am not friendless ... but i am lonely .. i cant do the things i want to .. well thats not all true .. i get o do many things .. i am not in such a bad place ,,, but i shoud be carefull on what i say .. most of the times the things that i saw .. come true .. hence i a, going to put it out there ,,,, i am very happy .. i have a lot of money ... i have lots of friends ... i have alot of happyness

saying this does make me happy

love you mate

A~~